so, i downloaded The Lucky One forever ago…and i wanna see it..but i’ve been having an incredibly hard time double-clicking that stupid thumbnail…just because me and kaycee were supposed to go see it together, it was planned for the weekend after everything happened. i feel like when i watch it i will be emotional because of the movie and then because of kaycee. and i feel really stupid for it lol.
so now i will just watch The Hunger Games again instead.
I feel like if Mockingjay is split into two movies, they’ll end the first one at Katniss and Peeta’s reunion. Like it’ll show him ring her neck and boggs punch him and then boom credits and we’re all just sitting there like
so we’re actually talking right now..kind of..it’s been a day long conversation. but i told her that i always wonder if we’re ever gonna have a normal conversation again, one that doesn’t take hours or days or is even about something completely random or stupid.
and she tells me that she thinks she just gets afraid of the part of getting too comfortable about talking too much cause she’s just trying to focus on the healing aspect for her and the kids.
and you know i get it, and i do wish she would talk to me more, but even though she doesn’t want to right now, just her saying something like that makes me feel better cause it’s pretty much her saying that if we talk a lot one thing will lead to another and she’s just not ready for that right now cause she has other things that come first. but that’s right now, which leaves later completely possible.
i guess it's only right to let you know that that post you liked of mine was sparked by going through your pictures on whim and seeing all the wonderful ones of you and your daughter. pdoifucgsvbhajklsdfkj.
that’s probably the best thing ever lol :) i liked your post cause that’s definitely what i want too..i mean i have the baby already who makes me perfectly happy and i would be totally fine if it ended up just being the two of us. but all the other stuff would be nice too, and i almost had the rest of it..i definitely caught a glimpse and experienced a little bit of what that life will be like, and it’s amazing.
i don't think you realize how much feeling, meaning, and truth is there when i say i'm not going anywhere.
i was doing really well with the whole not crying thing, i think i went a whole 2 weeks after i saw her the last time. but this week has been extremely hard…i think mostly because i went all week without hearing from her. i’m starting to get scared and have doubts. she has a lot more to think about, a lot more to deal with, a lot more to get through. i’m just afraid when it’s all over with, she won’t want to give us another chance. it’s hard to see any kind of outcome right now really cause i don’t know everything that’s going on. but it’s hard to see it being good. and maybe that’s just because of everything idk. i just hate feeling like this, i hate the wait, but i’m obviously not gonna do anything other than that. it does get easier to get through the day because i’m getting used to all of this being a part of my day. but missing her never gets easier.